What are you afraid of?

Hi, my name is Anne Rainey and I’m afflicted with the following phobias:
Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
Altophobia - Fear of heights.
Apiphobia - Fear of bees.

Okay, I hear the first step is admitting it. Now what? LOL

Let’s get serious. I really, truly have a fear of spiders. I freak out when I see one, and I can’t get close enough to kill them, so we buy spray. I can kill them that way, because I don’t have to actually touch them. Once, when I was in high school, I was at home by myself, munching on something and watching t.v. when something out of the corner of my eye caught my attention. I turned and looked and something on the floor moved. I froze as I saw what it was. A spider. And not some baby thing either. This was like a spider on steroids or something. I freaked and jumped from the couch to the coffee table. I stood on that coffee table for (this is not an exaggeration) hours as I tossed things at the spider. I couldn’t bring myself to actually step onto the floor, because that’s where it was. After standing there for so long my brother came home and stepped on the spider, rolled his eyes and went to his room. I finally breathed again. I never told my family that I’d stood on that coffee table for literally hours, frozen by my own irrational fear. I was embarrassed and I knew they’d laugh it off. That’s the thing about a phobia. You know it’s irrational, but that doesn’t make it any less real. I wish I could overcome it, I wish it didn’t sound so crazy. I wish I could be like those people who scoop up a spider and set it outside. uh-uh, no way. Not in this lifetime. It’ll never happen. The very idea makes my skin crawl.

Now my fear of bees and heights isn’t quite as bad. I think because there are ways to avoid those. But it’s a physical condition, none the less. If I get up on a chair to change a light bulb, someone has to hold onto my legs, because I get dizzy. My feet will start to ache too. Soon, I’ll feel myself begin to sway. It’s a few feet of the ground! Nothing is going to happen a few feet off the ground! But try telling me that while I’m up on that chair.

I’m grateful I’m not afraid of more things. I’m not Monk, after all. But, it’s still frustrating to feel out of control over your own feelings.

Now, what’s your fear? Crowded places, germs, needles, closed in spaces...? And what was the worst moment in your life when your fear held you in its grasp? Have you conquered your fear? If so how?

and for an interesting list of fears, check out this link: http://www.phobia-fear-release.com/phobia-list-definitions.html


Danica Avet said...

I'm scared to death of snakes. When I go to the zoo with my family, they pretty much have to force me to enter the reptile house. The moment I enter, I break out into a cold sweat. My heart pounds. I start breathing faster. I stand well away from the snake tanks and have to force myself to look at them. It's the closest I've ever come to "conquering my fear" although there's no conquering involved.

When I was about 11 years old, I was walking outside barefooted and happened to look down to see a snake on the ground. Instinct had me jumping over the snake and runnning for my mom's porch where I stood and screamed bloody murder (now that I was 20 feet away from the snake). It was...horrible. *shudders*

Carly Carson said...

I have a very common fear - flying. It has affected my life, even though I still fly. I don't travel as much as I could due to this fear, and I'm still terrified most of the time. I've had scary landings in bad weather, really scary, and that didn't help. I only conquer it through drugs. lol

I've killed a lot of spiders. Hubby takes them outside.

Anonymous said...

I have a fear of flying. Terrible gripping fear. I can go to an airport, I can look at planes, but you can't get me on a plane. Which really sucks because I'd like to travel overseas and you can't drive or take the train to get there.

By the way, I like your lick to the Phobias.